???

It's always been that way. Questions, questions and more fucking questions. Barely answers. So what? Life's just a marathon of questions, each killing you more than the previous one?

But maybe we do know the answers? Like what that friggin author keeps emphasizing. That we just have to dig deep within ourselves..

What if we dont much like digging? In fear that we'll find out something else.. We'll never know?

I'm starting to have a headache.

Ok, I'm a cheerleader now



I saw you walking down the street just the other day
I didn't see your damage from that far away
I should have got a clue when the kids started screaming
You walked up to me with your buck teeth a-gleaming
Your hair was all frizzy and your face was a mess
I thought it was a sack but it's your favorite dress
You hurt the tree's feelings and the birds all flew
I don't mean to insult you
Oh, wait! Yes, I do!

Your teeth are yellow, they're covered in mold
Your only fourteen, you look a hundred years old
When looks were handed out you were last in line
Your face looks like where the sun don't shine
Did you fall off a building and land on your head
Or did a truck run over your face instead?
There ain't no pill 'cause you ain't ill, you're ugly

What you really need is to wear a mask
And book that plastic surgeon fast
Girl,
You're scary, you're hairy
I heard about you - you're the main attraction at the city zoo
You're so fat and ugly with a belly full of flab
When you wear a yellow coat people shout out "CAB!"

You got eyes like a pig and your nose is big
And with hair like that you should be wearing a wig
Uncle Fester, remember him?
I never knew that you had a twin
You can't disguise your googly eyes
In the Miss Ugly Pageant you win first prize


Yo mama says you ugly
You ugly!

Get busy, get busy, get busy, get busy
Get busy, get busy, get busy, get busy
Yo mama says you're ugly
Get busy
Yo mama says you're ugly
Get busy
Yo mama says you're ugly
You're ugly!

Now I feel like Blondie

Quasimodo
Camel breath
Squarehead
UGLY!
Chicken legs
Pig face
UGLY!
Fish lips
Toad licker
Poindexter
UGLY!
Spaghetti arms
Limp butt
Freak show
UGLY!

U-G-L-Y
You could make an onion cry
U-G-L-Y
Like an alien chased by the FBI
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
U-G-L-Y
You ain't got no alibi
You UGLY!!


***

This has GOTS to be the baddest, bitchiest song ever. And it's quite fitting that it's done cheerleading style huh? Talking streotypes here, hush!

And Bring It On? Love it. The other 2 follow ups PALE in comparison. The third one's okay, but omg the second one's terrible. :/

I still remember how everyone was quoting the first movie! Hahah, funny amusing shit.

I still can quote them, I think.

No way jumping up and down and screaming "Go team go" is gna satisfy me

Wow. I so can. :D

I'll tell you if you'll tell me

Did The Gridiron Gang and Gelare with six pointer Rachel today. Hardddd not to feel insecure around her with Results out so soon.. but hahah it's fine cos she's cool okay. :D Cool people hang with cool people.

Anyway, yes, the movie was pretty good. With a grand total of 7 people in the cinema. Hahah. Reminded me a lot of Coach Carter (Samuel L. Jackson) but I think it's better simply cos there was a tad more drama. Drama=Good entertainment, so yeah.

We both found him sexy! LOL.

Oh, I absolutely loved the last part. Totally diggin the input from the REAL characters. It was a smooth nice touch to the whole movie. Also loved how the script wasnt exactly scripted. Since most of it were Sean's (coach) original words.

Hello Rachel, thanks for today okay. I had a great time (as always), smart ass. Had an overdose of talking, squealing and laughing just now. Right? Grateful, glad and honoured. (:

An interesting picture, check out the view outside AND behind us

Today too made me do a bit of thinking. Friendships and Trust dont always have to go hand in hand. You're lying if you dont agree, cos it's true.

That's why there are different levels, different terms.

Anyway, a person I met for like all of 10 minutes could cite things about myself which I wasnt even consciously aware. How freaky is that!?

NO WAYYYYYYY!!!!

OMFG. STEPHEN'S IN ONE TREE HILL. OMFG. CANNOT BELIEVE IT. I THINK I JUST CAME. LOL.

What boredom and vanity

(:

So hello there. It's 4.25AM and I'm awake watching various teenage drama series on youtube. Hahah. Lame ass shite. THREE different ones too.

Some pictures okay! Camwhoring never hurt anyone. :P

I think we all look damn cute here. :D

Funkier than you, lor. Besides, it's not like I'm putting up pictures of myself in my underwear or something.

Okay, one LAST episode before I hit the bed! Yum.

Your 27th!

I've got about 15 minutes before it's the next day, so thank god I made it on time to declare my love (yet again, shut up) for..

NICK CARTER! Yes, this Carter boy has turned 27! How old is that! But it's okay. He still has my heart. :D He's probably having a great time with another playboy girl or something. Heh.

Happy birthday Nick. :D

The cat's out

Sometimes I think this blog is a whole load of bull. Sometimes.

I guess the real reason is cos I'm scared? I dont know. I mean. Oh god, this is really quite difficult for me.

Most of my entries are somewhat detached anyway. If you didnt realise. Maybe that's because I have another place to really just dump everything unpleasant. *shrugs

Well, this bit of truth I can and will say. It fucking sucks to be so alone. Yet another cliche, but really. You could be in a roomful of people, a busy street in town and still feel so.. out of place.

Suppose that's what you get for having the staircase going upwards. Not that you'll get that anyway. Only Aniszah will.

I want to know the meaning of every single dream of mine. To me, I honestly do think that dreams are a form of communication, from our own selves (the unlocked potential thing?), God, the higher powers.

Need a hug. Nowwww.

Faith



Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand

Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me
Aren't very far apart cos

I believe, that love is the answer
I believe, love will find a way

Violence is spread worldwide and
There's families on the street
We sell drugs to children now
Oh why can't we just see
That all we do is eliminate our future
With things we do today
Money is our incentive now, so that makes it okay
But

Chorus

I've been seeing Lisa now for a little over a year
She says she's never been so happy
But Lisa lives in fear
That one day daddy's gonna find out
She's in love with a nigger from the street
Oh how he would lose it then
But she's still here with me

Cause she believes that love will see it through
One day he'll understand
He'll see me as a person and not just a black man

Chorus

***
In our hearts a hope for a song, we barely understood

The Hinder Girl!

(It's OUR song okayyy!)

Today was good, cos I got to meet The Best Friend after a really long period of absence! I was 45 min late, and she was an hour late. That's why we are so cool.

Anyway, we basically stayed put at Far East, which is fast becoming a favourite of mine! SImply cos of all the hidden gems! I mean, there's the standard Forever21 and TopShop and whatever shops but I dont know. Far East has clothes and things which are.. not so.. mainstream? Hahah, dont think that's the word for it, but nvm. I just am beginning to love the stuff there.

Had lunch at one of those shops upstairs and it was really a good $4 lunch man. Fast food can kiss my ass. Hahah. (we all know it's kinda a staple but.. okay, shut up)

Got down and dirty with all the shops! ;D Tracked down the two shops I've been dying to go to since I got the Feb copy of Cleo but wtf. Very unhappy. Magazines deceive. I already knew that, but cmon!

After a very tiring couple of hours, we settled at Gelare where we shared a big waffle while being the lame ass shits that we are laughing at possibly EVERYTHING and anything, really.

Then got home, yup. Now she's.. doing something in my room (like cleaning it up a bit here and there, hopefully lol) and I'm here in front of the computer.

Got a few stuff today so I'm happy. The wallet isnt though. ): Aye tomorrow will be pretty hectic! But fun! Sooooo... Hahah.

Now I think I better be the great host that I usually am (except for that one time I was sleeping 3/4 of the time she was here cos I was too tired. But that's an exception.) and go see if the guest needs anything.

Actually, she knows where everything is so I dont know why I even bother. Oh righttt. CosI'm a really really nice person. (Let's forget for a moment how much we bitched just now, lol)

Goodnight you stalkers. :D

Saturday the 13th

That was a good day (more on that later) but the 13th. That's the main idea. Luck. Bad luck.

You know how some people CRAVE attention, as though their life depend on it? Well, I know of some.

Each time I replay the whole thing in my head, I feel the hurt, the anger, the betrayal times two. And the number of times I've replayed it? A lot. It's like. That to the power of 2. A lot of messy feelings.

Again.

High time I quit this self-doubting business. Better to doubt people than yourself. Cautious, maybe, but it beats dissapointing yourself when what you first thought was true, was.

Expectations. It's starting to be this.. scary word. I guess it never was not scary. Just that when you put things into perspective... Very different and very real. And Real almost always equates to Scary.

Yeah, the results but it's so much more than that too.

Had a HUGE (huge Earth-moving-climate-changing kinda huge) fight with The Mother yesterday. With each passing sentence, it's like the walls shook due to the sting, the volume, the intensity. Not forgetting all the eye-rolling, glares and "I'm *this* close to slapping you" looks. Went both ways, so it was pretty -again the word- scary.

But all's fine and dandy now. Well, you know how it is. The closer you are to the person, the crazier the fights. That's just love, I suppose?

Speaking of which, here's more. Love, that is. (:

130107. That was a good kind of 13th.

Anyhoo, tmr should be great. Meeting up with the forever busy as hell person! (:

Also, here's wishing Nuzurath Nisha (again, hahah) a verrrreh verrrreh Sexy 17th! ;D This Saturday at Keppel Club (which is not a club club dummies; recreational more like it), you'll see some verrrrreh happening people celebrating her 17th! Hahah.

To more good times, fantastic results, followed by more good times. Cheers.

And then it popped

Fucking cunt. Anybody would've just called it slutty.

You think I'm pissed? You think?! YOU THINK!?

UGH. The same kind each and every time. I'm soooo dumb.

Whatever. At least there's you who has a way of making things so much better even on the phone! Much love goes out to you babe. (:

Still. The cunt.

The Breakdown

So here's the deal.

When everyone's just having great fun *sings* sh sh shaking sh shaking now, there'll be the girls who dance with random guys and there'll be those that don't.

Those that do:

1. The girls who dont usually get that kind of attention from the opposite sex, so when they do, it's like ecstasy or something (meaning there's almost no boundaries ie lapping it all up)
2. The girls who just want to have fun and go ohwth and keep it harmless (meaning there's a respectable distance)
3. The girls that just want to have a wild time but keep in completely NSA so it's a win-win situation (meaning there's practically no boundaries)

Those that don't:

1. The girls that are shy and arent comfortable with that kind of.. contact
2. The girls with their boyfriends
3. The girls who think they're above the guys who want to dance with them (the selective lot)
4. Or the girls who're satisfied to boogie with their own group of friends

Then there are of course the girls who tease and tease then just as quickly as they "paired off", drop it like it's hot. Honest observation, that's all.

TP's Jam&Hop started off terribly. Way too many Cheena acts, sorry. It's like, the Chinese version of Hi-5. Maybe more annoying. But crazy friends decided to just shake along to them! HAHA. It was funny lah. I think the crowd was rather cool cos they were really responsive. And damn anyhow which upped the fun factor. Nice.

It got a lot better fast. Faster then Ngee Ann's at least. Haha, Mud you and friend cabut too early lah.

So the 6 of us, J, Dirah, Murny, Siti, Fatmah and I were mostly at the front-middle area. We did kinda get separated several times. We were sardines for the night.

The 2 hosts were pretty alright actually. They were funny and honest and it doesnt sound the slightest bit scripted so yay. (See, we were asking around cos we were so not going to have our bags on with us the whole time. Guy Host was nice enough to let us put our bags on stage! And we had eye contact with Girl Host several times when the crap performances were on/while groovinnnnn, hahah)

So somewhere at the start, Siti, Fatmah and I decided it's Pee Time and we ended up taking a break sitting down at some bench area taking pictures.. till we heard PCD's Dont Cha. HAHA.

The 3 of them left and it was just us three, Fatmah, Siti and I again. We went to someplace more roomy and it was sooo much better lah.

Anyway, saw quite a bit of familiar faces there!

It ended off with Usher's Yeah which.. I dont think was oooph enough. I mean how 2004 can you get?! Lol. But whatever lah huh.

We made our way to the vending machine and the four of us, Azwan joined us sometime somewhere haha, sat in front of the vending machine drinking cos my god, soooo thirsty please.

There was one time, I was so frickin thirsty, the smoke effects thing was at its peak and I have been eyeing that bottle on stage... so I just took it and hahaha. Gross and super anyhow, but cannot take it already. I mean better than me passing out due to dehydration right. (Reminds me of the 3 Second Rule that almost always isnt 3 seconds! Haha)

Do you realise that Rap/R&B songs can be quite.. insulting? Well, apparently, due to the time and place, sometimes the brain filters out such reason that you end up singing along to demeaning lyrics! Move bitch, get out the way; get out the way bitch, get out the way. WTF right, I know!

But ah. In my (our) defence, it's that kind of music that's the real.. deal if you know what I mean.

Okay, stupid/shitty moments aside, I had fun. I mean, why ruin it, yknow? So we walked out and waited for Fatmah's mum and I swear it was so exhausting and it was only about 11? I got home by a really amazing 11.30, thank you! Stepped into the car and that song was playing I swear it's a sign.

Well, what a night.

Oh and btw, I thought the people who handled my questions and the Business School stall sucked pretty bad. #1, hell rude. #2, it's like they didnt want anybody to come to their course or something. Was immensely put off by them.

The throat's sore from all the screaming over Friday's KTV-ing and then yesterday's screaming did no help either. So now, since I had this really bad cold the past few days (still kind of do), and passed it to Mother who'll soon pass it to someone else.. We have an endless supply of Panadol Cold, mini capsule, and the normal one. There was a time, so healthy we all were, I had to ask Niz to bring over some tablets for my migraine!

Anyway, some things you just cant get over and it's really quite a bother. Other things you just feel so.. - you dont even know how to react. Like you cant really think straight? Okay, I dont know, getting very incoherent here if you hadn't already realised.

Well whatever. Some things are best forgotten (no doubt temporarily) with the help of some new things. Think there'll be shopping later.

Maybe I could work on some manipulative skills and put it to test later? HAHA. Sorry parents. You're the one calling the shots with the cash what.

Colour coordinated heels+funky chunky shoes :D

I am presently awake because.. I cant sleep. Haha duh.

Today was considerably fun considering the terrible company. Oh who am I kidding. It was tons of fun lah. "OG" outing with Lock, Beatrice and Fairuz. I WAS ON TIME, thankyert! HAHAH. (Natasha did it then Clara too then it became a kindajoke. *waves hands around* Nvm.)

Had a really late lunch in town first. Saw yet another one of those people I pick fun playful fights with aka the ever so hot Rachel Judith! Someone was at Carl's Jr!

Well, it was nice to catch up and whine about everything that only people like us (read: SUPPOSEDLY non school going teenagers) would comprehend. For the record, I dont think it makes sense. (I had an "argument" with the lady at the Ticket Office the other day) It's like they're kinda grouping us as "possible drop outs" or something. HATE ADULT FARES.

Then we did KTV at a heartland please! Uber strange to me. Say dodgy babeh. Heh. But yeah. It was fun. Screamed our hearts out to supertotallyextremely bubblegum pop, pranced around and had a ball of a time, basically.

Okay, so maybe it was mostly me and Fairuz jumping about, hopping on the couch and everything. To be high is damn cool okay. But way embarrasing. Apparently, Beatrice video recorded us and watching it later... Hahahah.

(Pictures courtesy of Beat&Lock. Be nice, go visit and see more of me, kay? :D Anyways, can that totally be a brand name or what. "Hi, good morning. Beat&Lock here, how may I help you?")

First you beat them up, then you lock em up. HAHAHA. Funny.

Okay, maybe not. So it was a lot of Westlife, BSB (:D:D:D), Spice Girls, etc. There was a lot of emoemo/slow songs too. Like MLTR, Savage Garden, Simple Plan and a lot more.

After that, Clara, Fairuz and I headed over to Vivo, learnt and did the term "minishop" and settled at Starbucks for Java Chip Frap which is love, and for more talking. Think we talk a lot. It's nice to be around other chatterboxes. What more chatterboxes who're in the same shoes as you. Oh and the dude tricked me with the Rapsberry sauce thingy. :/

Screw the 5ocents. Say hello to nice pictures!

Fairuz and I managed to get a super long bus ride home. Dropped off at her stop to change buses but the friggin 8 didnt seem to come so I gave up and had to shell out eight bucks on cab fair. FROM DAMAI TO TAMPINES. Retarded 35% extra.

So I'd say, yeah. The first OG outing (albeit without Diana and Yingwai) was a sucess!

And the unglam picture of the day? (Putting this up cos I'm a great sport. Also cos I think it's kinda cute. And honest. Oh yknow. Just another one of our petty bickerings. :D)

HAHAHAHA. Morning all, who are sleeping tight right about now, yes? Today better be fun. Informative too. Another night of jamming and hopping babes!

I´m a barbie girl, in a barbie world
Life in plastic, it´s fantastic.
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere.
Imagination, that is your creation.

Come on Barbie, let´s go party!

Speechless

I dont even know where to begin! Today kicked ass so bad it was fuck amazing. Hahaha. Long story short, Siti and I crashed YJC today, joining J and Dirah and I have no regrets (as terrible as it sounds) lying to Dirah's poor form teacher who's actually really nice. Telling him a story which is actually Siti's... K, nvm.

Zero regrets. It was hell amazing. HAHAHAHA. Friendster proved to be so very useful and Huda proved to be as bold as Rayanne! :D I think I nearly gave them a heart attack since it was so random and way sudden. LOL.

Lovely lovely day. Yay I love.

One other thing. I think I love attention. Hahah. As in I dont seek it, but if given then soak it up baybeh! Then what? Shy away and be all "No lah. *giggles* Cannot. Dont want lah." in that really annoying small voice?

Yuck. :D

Dont know where to end either, so here's this lousy piece of entry. Nah.

Virgin college visit

As J1 students, supposedly, that is.

Siti and I went to MJ today.. illegally! We ended up at different bus stops! So I took a cab teling the uncle to "go one round around the school". Hahah.

Anyway, I think MJ's quite nice. It has this.. comfortable enough atmosphere. None of those have crazy fun but secret mugger kind. More like, if you want to study, study. You want to have fun, have fun. I dont know how to describe it exactly.

Since Shez and Nuzie both had 3 free periods straight, we spent quite a lot of time sitting at the canteen, observing people and talking.

Met several people, including the ex opera classmates/non classmate!

I have to admit though. It takes quite a bit of getting used to, the whole girl/boy environment. I mean, it's not like I dont have guy friends, or anything of that sort. More like, the school itself.

Okay, sorry. Very incoherent. It's just a bit strange at first lah, that's all. Damn, I'm too long winded.

We went up to this gallery place and played several mind games with Nuzie's OG. I cant believe I forgot so many of them! I used to be the one irritating the shit out of people and then I forgot everything!? Shit man. Haha. Played some I've never heard of before which were actually really fun!

About 12ish, they had to go off for Bio lecture, so Siti and I stayed at the gallery talking and talking and talking and getting bored. I think we covered a lot of topics! Haha.

After their lecture, we headed to Tampines Mall. I must say, it feels pretty cool now that Tampines is the "happening" place since MJ/TPJC's there and I have friends there, so the after school hang out would probably be TM which is oh, only 15 minutes away from my house!

Funness. Love it.

Lunched and walked about.. Nuzie got that top we saw the other time and it seemed like second (third?) love to her, hahah.

Oh we played at Toys R Us too! Did you know we have to surrender our bags before we enter? How smacked is that. And the lady was so rude! She was all "Bags please" in this really sour and AP tone!

Nothing irks me more than terrible service. Hello, you're paid for your service! I mean, working in a (kinda) service line thing, I can relate to what they're doing. You do get paid for it, so why do a terrible job?!

I mean. Isnt it weird? Taking the pay when you dont do your job properly? Can you truly say you've earned it? Strange.

Well, it helped that we had mad fun inside! Squealing at every single thing. Oooh. The first thing I did was jump on a bunch of giant bears with really soft pretty fur! Soooo comfy.

Goofed around for a bit, then browsed about and yup. That's about it.

Bob Huda and Siti the builder(s)!

I'm still not too sure whether it'll be Poly or JC. I think I'll have a clearer idea the direction I'll want to take after visiting TP. I have lots of questions, so poor you, whoever who's gna entertain me. (:

Well we did have 2 hours..

Tmr's JC Crashing Part II! (:

Light

You know what they say about turning points? How it's in that moment that you know everything's changed. What you've once assumed has evolved in a way you're not accustomed to.

That sudden realisation that made you feel so alive. Like you've been struck by lightning, then came to and realised 'Hey the volt's really not a funny matter' (of course, I know you'd have died but what if you didnt die?) . We all know lightnings carry this HUGE amount of electricity, but you never really knew how much till it struck you.

Am I making sense?

Well last year, I had one major turning point.

This year, I've already had two. I don't know what this probably speaks of 2007 so far. One's good - to know I suppose - while the other's really great to know.

So here's to future turning points that somehow, some way, are strong enough, capable enough to refuel your trust in Faith and the knowledge that everything is going to be okay.

It's all going to be okay.

My So-Called Life

Sometimes it seems like we're all living in some kind of prison. And the
crime is how much we hate ourselves... When you really look closely, people are
so strange and complicated that they're actually beautiful. Possibly even me.
-Angela (Claire Danes)

I remember watching the reruns of this show back in.. 1999/2000 somewhere there. And even though I dont think I got it all cos hello, I was 9/10, I remember thinking Claire Danes was really cool.

Weekend Part II

Psycho huh? At 5.49 in the AM? Hahah. Screwed the sleep time-table, slept too early so I woke up early too. (Early=1045PM) Nothing great on TV and I wanted to catch the 10th episode on Youtube... so.. Haha.

Anyway, yesterday was great. Cos I've not seen those two in a a really really really long time. Dirah&J!!! :D

We did the usual lunch&shop routine. But I guess it felt more of a big deal cos of all the absence? Hahah. There was sooooo much to talk about! Omg, it was damn funny how we couldnt stop talking and gushing and squealing and laughing and uh, talking too loudly at the restaurant? Lol.

Feels good to be back on track, girls! <3>

Dirah was wearing a blue striped top and J was wearing this black top. And I almost wore this blue AND black top. How funny would that have been! BLACK&BLUE!!! (I know you all have that album, dont lie.)

We spent the most time at Far East I think. Shopping=Shiok. Stupid shoes. Stupid feet. Stupid shoes that dont fit the stupid feet.

Progressed on to.. Centrepoint cos they wanted to say hi to their ex-colleagues and to shop/window shop of course. J finally got her bag! Fickle minded girl! (Look who's talking, but whatever)

Oh! We used the lift, got off at this super freaky place which seemed really creepy cos there were several doors and if we got off ont he wrong floor and the doors wont open, then what!? But we managed to find our way. Heng gala sai. HAHAHAH.

The toilet was the chosen spot for our photo shoot. LOL. And the Macs downstairs too, while taking a breather (a nice slow end to a great day) with ice creams and newly bought things in hand!

There was this lady who was SPYING on us while we took pictures! She seemed really amused! Cant blame her. Such great entertainment, who can resist!?

Anyway, yeah J went off to meet her friends while Dirah and I dropped by John Little to get her liquid eyeliner thing. She realised she got the wrong colour when we were at Somerset so we had to tap out and head back. And it took 10 to 15 minutes to change the thing! Who'd have thought it'd be such a hassle. But the counter girl was nice.

Headed back home and hahah, I decided to have some fun alone time doing some browsing at Tampines Mall! I want to live a walking distance from the place man. It'd be so friggin convenient, I likey.

So I got home, tried the cleansing tissues thing Mother got for me, showered and was flat out.

***
It was quite a worrying message. I had a hunch I knew what it was about. Unfortunately, I was right.

Really sorry you had to go through it, babe. Nothing just happens. There are signs which we just fail to acknowledge. Or dont wish to accept, like you said. I know what you're going through.

See, that's why we need to meet so I can give you a big fat hug.

Weekend Part I

I think I should be in the habit of asking people to give me wake up calls. It's really terrible to wake up to SMS-es.

Today did lunch, (unplanned) shopping and (unplanned) movies with Nuzurath Nisha! (: All's good and wow, I think it really is kinda possible to go slightly mental when on shopping mode. Say, overexcitement baybeh! I cant help it okay. Hahah, sry Nuzie Wuzie Muzie Cuzie Duzie Foooozie. :D

It was all -again- quite impromptu, cos the idea for today was just to -. But one thing let to the other. We caught One Last Dance! Oh you know. Only the first local movie to have premiered in the States and win that award and nominated for that other award! Heh.

The theme song is really quite haunting and I liked the way it was narrated. Also liked the way they portrayed Singapore. There was zero (not that I can recall of anyway) shots of HDB builings. It was all very funky and old skool. Nice.

The main character is Ruthless. But there's something very appealing about his whole character. Heart. That has to be it. The movie was pretty good, overall.

Wait, hold on. Here's the "but".

It gets kinda confusing if you're the sort used to shove-in-your-face plots which are no brainers (read:romcoms. also read: me). Hahah, that sounds bimbotic somehow.

The blood splatters also kinda ruined the atmosphere. Like you'll be on the edge of your seat and grabbing your friend's arms tight cos it was a gross scene and then you scream a little and look away, then look back to the screen and go "Eee. Ohmygod. The blood's so fake!" Spoils the moment!

"Okay, sex scene coming up!", "Now now. Confirm.", "LOVE SCENE! LOVE SCENE! LOVE SCENE!", "Okay, for real now. See, she's all vulnerable and he'll comfort her and tadah!"

No sex scenes. -.- Nada. Zilch.

Everywhere seemed pretty cold today so had my sweater on the whole time. I think the last time I went out (lunch after school counted, Maths at her place not) with Nuzie alone was.. Two years ago somewhere before the whole drama and misunderstanding, hahah.

***

How do people do it!?

I think it sucks somehow. It really does. I want it all back so I can redo everything and rewrite everything and be in a better position. I know I know, Life is like writing without an eraser or whatever, No point dwelling in the past, You cant turn back time, It's no use now...

But still. Wishful thinking may be dangerous, but hey, whatever.

I dont want to pen it down here cos I'll just get a lot of "HA"s and "I knew it"s and really. Now? Not good timing for that.

I need lots of reassurance. Which sounds oh-so-pathetic, then again, Human okay. Capital H.

This particular female singer/songwriter is eating me alive! It's freaky how much I can relate to her songs. No, not telling you who it is cos then you'd look up her lyrics and figure me out (even more) and we wouldnt want that now, do we?

When I listen to her songs, I'll get goosebumps cos it feels like she (kinda) lived my life and is telling me something (kinda) that gives a glimpse of the future (kinda) and stuff. Hahah. Bet I lost you a while ago.

The slideshow thing doesnt even work properly! Cos I put up a lot a lot of photos like a hundred over plus plus plus and it doesnt seem to be playing the whole thing! I've pictures that are me but not of me and it's not shown!

(bradchadnickbsbannasarahwickerparklakehousejareddermotdrewangelina++++++)

But when I go back to the site, the preview shows it. So. Incredibly. Fucked.

So okay now, I shall go do something to make me feel better. Like porn.

I kid, I kid. See you around and dont get carried away okay?

When the owl hoots

It's almost one now. The cold weather is strange. I'm used to it but.. it's just the timing of the rain! It's so.. apt.. All the time! Somehow..

The weekend's gna quite busy I think. And by busy, it means getting out of the house and not for work.

Help. How do you know how to align it to the centre? I can just look it up.. but I cannot be bothered. But crap, I'm bothered about it! Faizahhhhhhh where are youuuuu.

Do you get the feeling sometimes, when you feel as though you're being ignored on purpose? Ahh. I'm starting to get that feeling right about now, so please! Pick up your phone okay! WAKE UP. WE NEED TO CONFIRM DETAILS. LOL. GET YOUR LAZY ASS UP LAH. Nowww.

Sheesh.

I've not slept for.. about 32 hours now. Okay, so I had about an hour of rest. I wouldnt even call it sleep. And I dont even know why I'm doing this. Hm. Friggin weird. Huda needs to go do something normal that's fun and exciting and doesnt involve being in front of the com/tv.

Two words baybeh! Retail. Therapy.

Yay, Nuzie tmr! Hello girlfriend! Long time no see. <3>

Good morning. Wow. I'm hitting the bed at one. This is definite improvement.

Oh and actually I know why I'm doing this (stay crazily awake). I'm too used to the nocturnal thing which isnt good, yes I know. So I figured, that if I kept myself up long enough, by night I would definitely be too beat to do anything other than sleep, right?

Ooh. Body's aching all over the place. I think I'm starting to get way too drowsy. Seeing things. Hearing things. Feeling things, hahah.

Okay, night.

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I totally fucking did it! It's in the centre! And I didnt look up anything! Ahh smart! I deserve a new pair of shoes!

It's coming down and it wont stop

(HAHAHA)

Conversation between the father and the daughter

Who sings this song, pa?
Oh you wouldnt guess... A Malaysian singer!
Huh really?
Ya. Ning Baizura.
Wow. It's actually a nice song.
She's quite pretty.
I think I know who she is..
She has your nose!
*beams* Really? (thinking since she's pretty that has to be a compliment)
*nods head* Crooked and all. :D
OMGOSH. PA SHUT UP PLEASE.

***
So for the past few days, it seems as though the rain keeps coming in the middle of the night. Which is quite nice I suppose, when you're enjoying the silence with the cats keeping you company. The rain can be so comforting sometimes. Rain+Cats=Perfect late night company

Which reminds me. HOW CAN RAIN BE THE ARTIST OF THE MONTH!?!?!?!?! Okay, so I kinda secretly enjoy that music video, and he does have a rather nice body and can totally move like fwoahhhh and he's kinda sexy in that Asian small-eyed way, but really ah. Artist of the month? o.O

Anw, HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

There are several regulars who drop by the cafeteria. The ones that I look out for, for obvious reasons, makes work much more fun. ;D (Never knew I could actually find them in such a place but whaddyaknow...)

There's this two Malay guys who dyed their hair blonde, so it's real easy to spot them. And oh, they are the few who can actually carry off the colour pretty nicely so lucky them. They make blonde look sexy. Besides, even without the hair, they ooze confidence, and that alone grabs my attention.. Particularly, I only look out for one of them.. The other's just. His blonde friend. LOL.

Well, so yesterday, I saw him! And he dyed back his hair blackish/brownish. And ooooh. Let's just say I think I've found the Malay version of Stephen Colleti! Of Laguna Beach fame! Like how my sister found the Malay version of Smallville's Tom Welling? HAHA. Was thinking to myself how come he looks so familiar.. So when he dyed back dark, the light bulb went off.

Hello remember. It's the guy that actually got several of you shitheads to tag, gushing about him. -.- Thanks ah. So what? I'd have to post up pictures of yummylicious boys before people comment!?

In other news, I'm missing friends. So hello friends. Here's a hug, friends. Meet up soon. All of you. *mwahhhhhhh*

Love,
Huda

PS: Like the slideshow? Like it? Like it? Like it!!! I know you do. Thing is, I kinda suck cos I dont know how to align it to the centre. Boo me. ):

Folder browsing

Out of kindness, (some call it boredom, others say she just doesnt want to reveal all that much suddenly; go figure) I shall post them up.

Sleeping brother and the sleeping cats

Koko the Otter

My ever so proud Kieffy who thinks she's so great just because she's a Persian

Slippers and a long flowy skirt make me feel so free, I dont know why

Hear, see, speak, smell no evil. Dont ask. Taken at PA during Campcraft finals. *cough, wipes tears, cough*

Rocker boyzz! \m/

(failed) Jap wannabes

The blind mat! Get it!

My "16th". Yeah I know. We're too cool for you. Hah. ignore.

(Wrong! We forgot about the mirror image thing)

(Right!) To the left, to the left

Preparing for the attack.. The poor innocent victim unaware..

The attack!!!

Messy bed, messy dresser, messy table, messy everything. I dont see the point of cleaning up my room to have it all messy again in two days! (When I sleep I just shove everything to the floor/the other side of the bed. OR. I dont sleep on my bed. There's always the sofa, the brother's bed, the matress... Ya I know, I'm strange.)

Can I just say I won this round? And that I cant help but to gloat? Even if none of you understand? Yeah I know I can. :D

Other than my triumph, I need to learn how to stop crying when I'm watching shows which arent even real anyway! So lousy man.

Here's to more stupid dramas and stupid tears. <3>

Just a phase..

hopefully.

And i know that it's a wonderful world
but i can't feel it right now
Well i thought that i was doing well
but i just want to cry now

I'll probably regret this entry soon enough. But right now? This is hell. You are giving me hell. I'm not used to using vulgarities in reference to you, but it's becoming a habit. I mean really. Am I all that bad?! Am I? Really? That you have to pile up all that crap about me? Use everything against me?

It's sad cos it used to be so great. Now, I'm just trying to ignore you as best as I can. The sight of your face, your very presence, and I feel bile coming right up.

That, or my eyes are on auto-roll at the slightest hint of your voice. Take your pick.

I'm not perfect, yeah I get that. But then again neither are you so stop it damn it! Just stop.

Whatever it is, it sure as hell isnt my fault. So it really is pretty darn brilliant of you to vent it out on me.

I cant even talk to you anymore.

And I miss that.

Stupid teenage drama

Oooh. Inner conflict. Ugly.

I have been the strangest person alive the past few days.

Well, other than that, I'm loving OC and I'm so sorry (because I do like both) but OC totally trashes One Tree Hill. Want proof? Look at the number of views, honey! HAHA. It hit 12,ooo over in just a day.

This picture is from the very first season and Peyton's way too cool, thank you. Way too cool. James Lafferty is sexy. And Bethany has very nice hair (did she get married cos her surname changed to some Gallieoti thing when it's supposed to be Lenz or smth). Lucas plays an overall noble and nice character. And I still like Peyton - a lot. Brooke is so darn annoying sometimes.

Ryan is really really really sexy. Seth's way too cute. Summer and Taylor are both really adorable characters you'll end up loving them. And hey. Sandy's not too bad either! Go Rylor!! Woohoo. :D

Like I said, The OC beats One Tree Hill. (a million to one)

But then again.. Oh what the heck. Teenage "soap operas" are the best. They should come up with another series. I mean Fox has OC and WB has One Tree Hill. What about the other channels!?!??! Come on, give these two shows a run for their money!

(and pile on the drama please!)

Six o'clock and the cats

I dont even know why that's the title. *rolls eyes* Anyway, I've been learning a lot from this book I'm reading and wow. I've been digging my own grave the whole time! How so incredibly stupid is that!? I KNOW!

But you know how sometimes books catch you off guard and they somehow end up "psychoing" you into believing something you shouldnt or at least be given a chance to think about and not just shoved down your insecure, take-in-all-you-can throat? See, you have to watch what you read sometimes. In every sense.

I busted money on these shampoo/conditioner and I dont think they're all that great. LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE. Have I mentioned how much I love toiletry shopping? It's fourth after accessories which are after clothes which are of course after shoes.

I too, love reruns!!! They are the best. 8.30 and 6.30 every single day baby!

I too, love YouTube. But shit. Can someone OBSESSED with OC in US hurry up and upload the 4th Jan ep!? It's killed me enough. ):

I need some friends-lovin now can. Burh. Well, at least I've got my cats. Kieffy is getting disgustingly manja. But I ruuvvve youuuuu darling! Hey, a bond of 8 years now? That's some serious shit.

I was about to poke somebody hard in the ribs, metaphorically speaking (not in the joking style, more like the stop-you-dead-in-your-tracks-you'll-choke-on-air kind), but I decided to be graceful and let it slide.

Good morning! And here's a big fat "HA!" to you people getting ready to go to school. And you know what. I found two movies I rented from downstairs which are about 2 months overdue. Great. More fines to pay! Story of my life.

Constant Crap!

Ha I'm so witty! :D Okay, it's way too early, I'm sleepy now. Ugh, Peyton you ah. Gimme headache. Anyways, dinner was good with the 3 of them just now/ytd. We did halal Jap food @ Ramen Ten and hahah. I did not flirt with the waiter omg. I just wanted to know his race! Well, he is quite cute..

Dont much like details cos my eyes are too fucking heavy thank you. But it was good food, good company, good laughs, good times. :D

Dropped by Mariam's to just chill and ooooh camwhored like the whores/gigglo's that we are. Then cabbed back home. Take that Jib! Ya lah, want to have "alone time" with Mud what!

Oh and Mariam and I have a new best friend. Her name is Hello from Picasa. And she is love. Just shut up, listen to me and download it. It sends photos like *snaps* that! Serious. The chatroom thingy that comes with it is amazing. Really lah. Technology's too fine sometimes.

And we accidentally discovered that it has this cute little images floating down if we were to type certain words like "hearts" and there'd be cute little hearts floating down the screen! So we kept on typing stupid things experimenting about! With money, Adam Brody, Nick Carter, and whathaveyous. Hahah.

Here's a really cute pic to satisfy your dying need to see them hot lovely photos!

HELLO 2007! I think I'll love you!

Yup, more photos from that outing with these babes!

Okay, must must must make this quick, fairuz-style kinda blogging. You know. The one paragraph thing. HAHA. I CMI one. Confirm.

SOOOOOO last night was insane. Insane, meaning spontaniety was the key to incredible moments you wont forget! And everything was pretty much unexpected? LOL.

Like how the three of us planned on having dinner and watching fireworks a la Fireworks Festival, that night? Only the fireworks part happened. Fairuz was super late, she had to get past the CRAZY THRONGS OF PEOPLE solo. At least Diana and I had each other!

Sat in front of this Malay couple (we assumed they've done it, hurhur) and a bunch of Banglas! AHH. But that was mostly Diana who got them leering cos she was dead smack in front of them.

THEN IT STARTED TO RAIN. Like wth, I tell you. Duck is jinxed. She mentioned rain and a few seconds later I felt the first drop! Okay, so we sat there with the rain pouring and people running all over the place for shelter and what not. Cos I dont know. Fairuz was complaining away lah please. She's rain lousy.

So then we finally decided to head on to One Fullerton's Starbucks so Fairuz will stop whining. The queue was fucking long. It took YEARS before we even managed to get inside Starbucks itself! Wow, and when Diana is cranky it's annoooooooying! Hahah.

So we got our drinks which was "#42" and shared a table with two Korean women, with two chairs among us three. I thought they were so cute!

Then the fireworks came on, and we ran out to see it, like all the other Kiasu shits and then realised our seats were probably long gone, so we just walked to.... no where? SHEESH. We ended up sitting on the curbside of the highway they so nicely blocked off.

Fairuz did a stupid thing. She shouted "Happy New Year!!!" to God knows who; no one in particular I think and then this whole LORRY of Mats happened to be there and. UGH. MATS. Pests I tell you.

And all of a sudden it's 11.52!! We have eight minutes till the new year! So you know what spectacular thing we did?! We were rushing forward, half running cos heels arent funny to get the best view from the highway. Quite retarded, no?

But then the fireworks came on, it was so so pretty! It's nicer than the other times. Stardust effects are gorgeous! Called the three friends I love with all my heart and one didnt even pick up my call!!!!!!!! #^%@*&#^*(!&#_

After the display, we decided to "walk aimlessly about". We ended up jumping from the CBD area to this Quay and then to the other Quay. Met up with Diana's sister and friends cos it was her birthday and yup.

And then I got shit scared, cos I'm a pussy like that and we managed to do it!!! EFFFFFF OOOOOOO SEEEEE baybeh! HAHA. I thought it was quite funny, the whole thing. Although I was very chicken and everything. Ahahaha. Chop transfer was retarded.

Came in and there were already hot guys greeting us at the entrance!!! Like whoa. And just too bad if I'm prejudiced towards the Caucasion guys lah! Haha. Diana and I realised that we're terrible like that, lol. Taking double takes for them, and probably none, anybody else. Except those that really stand out and whatever lah.

Oh there was this couple beside us that were man. Going all out, pretty much? And I really am thankful I was wearing one of my older heels and not really my treasured ones cos it ended up having a bit of puke on it and I think I wore off the heel quite a bit from all the walking. Fake suede.. No trouble getting it off right?

Oh yeah. We met up with Janine and Friend for like 15 minutes.

After that, we walked aimlessly about. Crossing roads barefooted, cos it hurt so bad! Ended up in some mall, where we sat for all of 3 minutes before the guard told us (nicely) to go away to some place else. Then we walked some more and then met up with a lot of other random people that were (as was the theme of the night) unexpected!

So the whole lot of us. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 of us sat on that curb/place drinking/muching on 7-11 stuff. Beatrice! Regina, Bryan guy, Diana, Fairuz... Then Fairuz left and then it became five. Then met up with other people (Duck's sister and friends). And then it became... nine. And nine of us headed for prata and such at this coffeeshop that's open 24 hours. And Diana just talked way too much when she's a bit high and cuckoo. And it just wouldnt stop!

Then cabbed to Siglap with Bryan, Regina and Beatrice and I woke Najib up to push our breakfast date much much earlier. So at about 6.45, Najib and I headed for Siglap Centre and waited for Macs to open. And what seh. I got declined!!!!!!!!! WTF. New year's and this is what I get! Plus 5 bucks Jibbbbbbbbb.

Then I cabbed home cos I was far too tired already. Hit the bed. But not before I've showered and got off all the make up and it's times like this I hate mascara cos it's the toughest to remove! Especially when my Clarins eye make up remover is at Nuzie's!!!!!!!!

My mother was being so sweet. Gosh I really love her. Like when she called me at about 2+, 3, I told her that it ended up being some kinda of big "reunion" thing, she was okay about it. And then when I called her again at about 6+, 7 to tell her about the breakfast thing, she was okay with it too! Dont you love my mother?!?!?!

So I just woke up, and had a blast with the ushering of the New Year and everything. And now I'm off to have dinner with The Constants, aka Mud, Jib, Mar.

I hope you had a blast too! So, I dont want an entry solely about how this year's been blablabla cos I'm not a boring person. :D But hey, 2006 was hell, pretty much, so HELLO 2007!!! I hope the start of this year being so cuckoo will be the trend for the entire year!

I've been using "cuckoo" and "like that" and "so then" too much right! Okay. Anthem for the New Year is......

You gotta be by Desree

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry

You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my, hey hey

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face
Oh oh

Remember

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears

My oh my, hey hey

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Yeah yeah yeah

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Yeah yeah

Got to be bold
Got to be bad
Got to be wise
No one ever said

Got to be hard
Not too too hard
All I know is
I never saved the day

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together

(pardon all my sp errors or whatever cos I've not the time to edit!!)

Now people. Reflect and have a rocking good time. (: